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December. The one month out of this whole year I wish I could take back and change. My actions this month have costed me. Left a guy I really liked because of one fight I should have dropped and forgot about. Just about lost a friend because I didn't want to accept what he was saying even though I knew it was true. I'm trying to become happier, a more pleasant person to be around, but I just keep wishing I could take everything back that I ever did or said. I wish I could. I regret everything that I've said or done. Now I am single wishing I could take everything back. Right now I just want my friend stephen back and the guy I dumped. I shouldn't have done it. Now I'm almost alone because of all my stupid actions. Alone and wishing for a kiss or a hug that some guy could give,even though its not going to happen. Looking back at everything I've done wrong. I guess it's true what they say, "you never know what you have till its all gone". Well I guess I have a Christmas wish then: To take everything back, to make everything right. To have him back and not just as a friend, even though I know its not going to happen. Not even in my wildest dreams. So to anyone that is reading this, learn from my mistakes before you make any that are the same. Stop and think about things, don't do things that you'll regret, and take the time to stop and appreciate those that are closest to you and listen to any advice that they give you. It'll help you before you do something stupid.