You know what the hardest part is?
Looking at your face and knowing that you don’t
feel the same way I do.
I can see it in your eyes—they’re different.
The way you look at him, and the way you look at me
are two completely different scenarios..
You love him, you’re only infatuated with me, if that.
I don’t see why you beg for me to stay when all I do is cause you
pain and more distraught.
I don’t want to be the reason you lose sleep at night—
say I’m not, but even so I don’t want to contribute if that much.
I want you to be happy more than anything.
I’ll make you happy and you know, as well as I know that that’s true.
I’ve loved you for the longest time, never stopped loving, I can’t
stop loving, I don’t see why you’d ask me to try.
It’s impossible to get you out of my head, I don’t know why but it is.
I hurts being around you now, seeing you with him, hug him, hold him,
the look you give him, and the smile he makes you smile… it’s sickening.
I want to deck him in that pretty boy face of his..
but I don’t have the right—it’ll upset you.. .but it upsets me, not being that guy.
I’m not jealous… or maybe I am. He has you. I don’t.
He’s happy. I’m far from it.
I don’t know, but I hate being that other guy…
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I adopted a chibi!
Name: Ari
Age:13
Likes: Sunsets, Poetry, and Yuri
Dislikes: Country, Ignorance
Owner: UnLukii
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