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I'm so mad right now I could explode. Why? Because my ******** friend is being a b***h. She keeps saying, "Oh, I'm your friend." But then she goes and acts stupid!! First off, she gets mad at me for getting bad grades; what should she care it's my life not hers. Next, she calls me stupid for no reason... like, she'll be like "Don't sit by me. Kelsey, I want you to sit by me. Sorry, Kadama." Another thing is she'll say "No offense, Kadama, you really need to get a brain." Or she'll tell me I should give up anime. ******** that s**t!! I have my hobbies and she has her's. She even laughs at me when I'm having a really bad day. I try to hold my feelings in at school because otherwise I'll cry forever. I can't trust anyone it seems. Last year when that damn accident happened, I came to school the next day feeling like I was gonna cry. Guess what? She was there to b***h at me for not getting my homework done. Listen, b***h, you get in a car crash and try to stay stable! I don't really think she's my friend. Here's an example of what usually happens durring school:
Me: *sigh*..................................
Her: Kadama, what's up?
Me: ........Nothing really.......*sigh*
Her: What's wrong w/ you?
Me: I didn't get my homework done. -_-
Her: Why not?!!!!
Me: I felt pretty bad last night.
Her: Yeah right. I bet you're just sayin' that!
Me: .......................................*sigh*
Her: Hi, Kelsey. n_n
Kelsey: ^^ Hi!
Her: Kadama didn't get her homework done.
Kelsey: So?
Me: ...............................
And well she does have some good points too. But still she makes me feel really bad so do my classmates. She thinks it's hilarious that they're "afraid" of me. They hate me that's all. She keeps saying that I need to change and be some else. What kind of friend is that? First off, they're supposed to like you the way you are. I have real friends who like me for me and not because they want me to change. My bf wouldn't go out with me if I wasn't who I am right now.
She even grabbed the notebook that I write all my personal things in and read it without my permission. She read my "to whoever cares" letter and called me dumb and laughed in my face. Why do I put up with this s**t? Terrun helped me get through everything [the hell] I've been through. He even beat the s**t out of the guy who tried to force himself on me. She wouldn't understand why I love him. And she calls me stupid for falling for a guy. ........ Okay now I calmed down, but yeah..... So blah.
BYE!
[/img]Sometimes I feel like I could let go of all the pain I feel but then I realize that it's part of my curse. I want to truly smile. Someone help me..........................................................