|
I woke up feeling my face and i sighed. "Not again!" I said to myself as i wiped the tears off of my face and laid there for a bit untill i looked normal. Then i rolled out of my bed and moved my pink curtains and looked outside. My hand touched the cold window. "Its hard to think that we live under the same sky dosent it....? Cuz you seem so distant." I smiled "But we will see eachother again. We will find a way no matter how hard uncle trys to keep you down there." I turned and saw myself in the mirror. Im smilled and said "Why hello there sexy!" I had monkey pajama pants and a cami on my sholder was bare because the string didnt stay in my sleep. I started to swing my hips side to side i think im very beautiful naturally and the boy who wants me will have to accept that. I put on a hoddie and ripped jeans and i tied my hair in a ponytail on the side of my head. i let alittle bit of my bangs down. I walked over to my closet and pulled out my converse and walked to the living room.My Dad wrapped his arms around my neck and screamed "Sleeper hold!" I giggled and broke free and walked to the car i knew what was coming, Babysitting Elli. But surprisingly i was left alone for awhile because her dad had to take her somewere. I hate being alone and bad thoughts entered my mind I hate him i really do. He seperated me and the one person who wouldnt leave me. He basically seperated me and my brother.I was also thinking about when i started to cry when i was on the phone last night. "thank God im a quiet crier. In was on the phone and it was silent and i put tonight on by Fm static and i thought about my cousins and i cried hard. but silent . The tears came and i wiped them and i started to think about Kin and Nana. They are a couple my friends and i love them dearly. I hope hes okay. i thought And i giggled when i started to think about Nana. After that i saw Eliorya waddle into the house. Karl (her father) Told me to put her down for a nap. So i walked over and said "Hey Elli nap time " She looked at me and said "No" "Elli if you dont sleep you cant come over my house later..!" I said with a smile. She looked at me and said "Fine" She pointed to the other couch "You have to sleep over there too!" I giggled "Alright." I walked over and jumped face first into the couch and closed my eyes so it looked like i was asleep. After awhile i herd Elli snore and i thought mission cleared xD. But i turned over and i layed there and my eyes got heavy. I cant sleep here thats rude. I thought to myself but my eyes slowly got heavier and before i could think of anything else i fell asleep. It was my first peaceful sleep before my flashbacks started and i was grateful. After that i decided that it might be okay to cry sometimes but dont be depressed about the tragedy
|
