So, basically, I'm living a lie, almost everything I'm told is a lie. All I can remember is a lie, all the good memories were a lie, everything around me is a lie. My life is a lie. I was a mistake, and accident, never supposed to be. Never supposed to exist, never supposed to be loved, never supposed to be thought of. The life that I live is for on purpose, and one purpose alone, to prove that I am not weak, to prove I am strong and that I will not give up. Every night, it's the same routine, every day the same, nothing happens, only pain and suffering. Alone, hated, unloved, misunderstood, unwanted...Yep, that's me. No one cares, no one likes me. The only reason they ever talked to me was to use me for whatever they wanted, they used me, abused me, accused me, did everything they could to make me feel this way, well congrats, you succeeded. Could you just leave me alone now? Unless you truly care for me, unless you want to see me, unless you actually want to try to make me smile. If you don't want to see me, then go away, don't look, act like I don't exist. Ignore my cries for help, I'll still make it through, I'll still live, I won't be the one who is too weak to go on, I won't be the one who takes their own life because of what people tell them. I'll be the one who fights through the battles who suffers through the pain, who does their best to live, and who actually tries. I will at least try, and I know the promises I made, and I am so sorry that I have broken them, I am especially sorry for breaking a specific one, I'm sorry, I needed to, I'm too hurt right now, and this made me feel better. I'm so sorry...
xX_angelic_demon · Fri Oct 15, 2010 @ 06:03am · 0 Comments
