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Well of course i'm not emotional..i just want to express what i feel..
its not like i could broadcast that i hate it, i hate what i feel..
and they would start asking questions..
after that, what? what do i get??

reactions..reactions that did not even help a bit..

so why bother tell them..if you knew they could not help??

but its really confusing you know??..how would you know if they could help you if you were not asking anyway..

OH MY!!

i really hate it when things go this way..

it's not that easy you know!!..

well..it's really my mistake going this far..i should have stop this earlier..

i should have known it from the start..why waste it??..there's so many of them.

i don't know what i found on him...but there's more of him right?

maybe not like him..better maybe?

but for now..i would go with the flow..

it's not that i was really hurt..it's just the people around..

they talk about this stuffs whenever i'm around..can't they just talk about it when i'm already gone..

YES!! i've already accept it..okay?
he likes her..i know..why do you have to say it for so many times..

can you just please shut up!!!can't you just not let me know..
i already knew it..alright??
are you really trying to irritate me..


he already said..were just special friends..what's with the special??
so confusing..they have deeper closeness..and yet..

the way i feel is not right..maybe i am the one who's making this really hard..

maybe i should just sit around..and watch them..maybe that way..

it would ease whatever i feel..*sadness? jealousy? annoyed? irritated? anger? happiness?*

what ever it is..i will tell you when i have figured it out..