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Right now, it is CRITICAL that i blog or write my thoughts
the age of 13-16 (now, god knows when it will end) is the major turning point of my life
my interests are clashing, my personality is refining
my thoughts can never be more expressive, i just need to convert them to words!
Before i sound autistic, (which is not surprising since im close to mental suicide) let me tell myself i can express myself
i just need - time? later?
Live very second as your last,
theres always hope,
no passion no life,
never giveup
im slowly picking myself up, my lack of enthusiasm and effort has broken me as a person, yet not so broken - in this time of no progress im building myself inside as a person, i think i need to work on mentality for a while before jumping to real action
i know i know dont dream it, do it
well how can you do anything without dreaming first? if i hadnt, i wouldnt be here
id be hanging with friends and reading pointless magazines telling me through glamorous pictures that i should be airheaded and self-conscious
well no, eventhough im going nowhere physically, i am mentally
this has made me feel better since i got depressed and started to sulk about the fact that im not doing anything with art..
but soon i will be free