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One thing about people that never ceases to amaze me is how different people percieve different things. Everyone looks at different events differently. It doesn't just vary based on gender or age (though those do play a factor), but as to the personality of a person.

That leads me to my next endless speculation. Are people born with a built-in personality; a character that has been given life and just needs to grow? Or are babies clean slates, without any sort of ideas at all? Consider the implications of both of those.
If a child is born with a built-in personality, then that throws all the "screwed-up childhood leads to screwed-up adulthood" s**t out the window. Furthermore, it feeds the fire of the "God creates and destroys man" theory. Also, this would mean that you and I, as other humans, have no effect on the personalities of eachother.
On the other hand, if a child is born as a clean slate, this means that others are fully responsible for the thoughts and ideas of everyone they've come in contact to. This makes some sense, because it seems that the "screwed-up childhood" argument actually has some amount of volubility. Just to put Christians in a conundrum, however, this would mean that it would be perfectly fine to carry out abortions, for these babies are just sponges, ready to absorb bits of personality.
This leads me to an interesting thought-if a mother had her child in the middle of nowhere, with noone else around, noone but her to teach and effect her child, would that child turn out to be excactly like his/her mother?
Personally, I tend to cling to the latter theory, thought I do not have a reason for doing so. Perhaps I like the idea of not being responsible for my actions, which makes me seem like a less-than-ideal person. Maybe a mix of these theories is close to the truth... but that is a topic that I do not want to get into at this moment in time.

Finally, to segway into was a really sat down to write about: how people are different in different company. To use myself as an example, when I am in a large group of people that I feel comfortable with, I tend to monopolize the center of attention, and generally act very stupid. However, when I am one on one with someone that I know to be capable of carrying on an intelligent conversation, I tend to be very mature and calm. When I am with my parents or siblings, it is altogether different.
The thing that gets me every time is that I don't even do it on purpose. At times, I find myself in the middle of a group making an a** (a lovable a**, but an a** all the same) out of myself, and wonder why I am doing what I am doing. I automatically lapse into a whole different mindset depending on the setting and the characters involved in the story of my life.
Ah, the masks we wear in life. But to hide what? Perceived weaknessess. Vulnerabilities. Insecurites. We hide behind these masks of differnt personalities in order to protect ourselves, for we are afraid. Fear drives how we choose to be percieved, and eventually how we cannot help but be perceived, for we have gotten so used to donning these masks in different situations. But when we are with someone we trust, we must remove these masks and be seen for who we really are.
If there is any advice I can give, whether or not I am qualified to, it is never to lose sight of your true self. Always know who you really are. Do not let the schizophrenia of these masks cause your true self to be distorted, regardless of whether or not that "you" was created by others, or if it is inherent.

Until next time, peace.