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Highschool=Degrassi??
Uhm, yeah right. So far hs has been the same old, same old. Homework. Running the mile. Boys who I'll never get a chance at. But anyways!~
Going to the beach was awesome, it was so much fun with everyone it's just that the sand was a lot rougher than i expected! And the water and air temperature was freezing.. But still fun lol! And Kimberly's dad was unexpectedly hardcore...
I mean, how can you have a daughter like that and be so... I'm not trying to be mean but he was super serious. Made me feel like I was supposed to be on my best behaviour with him!!! eek I guess I was, though. Like, I hardly cussed and stuff.. Well in front of him.
And it was sooo good seeing Alvin again! I always have to take the chance to see him since we go to different highschools and stuff. The thing about hs is that there's new people, experiences and hot boys lol, but our group is split up sad sucks.
And also, something else really disappointed me. Cuz we came to SCHS hoping for new friends and then we end up hanging out with the same people we saw at Cabrillo. It's really sad. But kind of understandable since everyone's already made friends and they're gonna stay with em, you know? But god I really wish there was a group of nice girls and guys and our groups just came together!!! Cuz the more people, the more fun! And I've always wanted hot guy friends. But it doesn't look too likely at this point. Cuz the guys here are douches.
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And also guess what everyone? ^^
PERSONALITY ISSUES IS WHAT.
I've had this in elementary school. When I was doin the whole transition thing to sweet and shy to kinda bitchy. I didnt even realize it until.. I dunno. Sub conscious? But now I don't know what I am. The whole thing with my family has made me really bitchy and then sometimes I feel normal and then I'm acting like a b***h again. sad I wanna be in between! I don't wanna be a pushover but then I don't want to be that girl who everyone is scared to talk to in case she blows up. Right now it's really hard for me to find that middle ground.
Idk. I feel like that's my answer for everything and now I feel like this je has gotten way too personal and emo for me. It's taking a lot of effort not to delete this whole thing right now.
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