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I really don't, I'm just posting. Well... hm... as long as I'm posting, I may as well just say, theres this jerk in English that I hate so much. Sam. God I hate this guy, he's the biggest disgrace of a mac user I've ever known. He pisses me off so much, and I don't know why the stupid things he does piss me off so much... they just do. Maybe it's because it's filled with more malice, and he's trying to get people to laugh at his immaturity while he's being mean to me. I think he's trying to get me to be like some of the preppy girls (he hangs out with a lot of them anyways) are and cry or something, just because he's mocking me or making fun of me. Who's he showing off for? When he makes fun of me no one else laughs. What's he getting out of it? Nothing. Today he was really pushing it, I think 'cause I was joking with the teacher about them being really REALLY immature and all this crap, but it's true and he knows it. Do I threaten him or something? WHAT THE HELL IS THIS GUY'S PROBLEM, HUH?! It pisses me off because everyone else seems to understand that I'm not someone you should mess with when it's malicious, but if you joke at me I'll joke right back or laugh and shrug. That's just how I am. So they know.
Apparently he doesn't.
a*****e.
The funny thing about that class, I get the feeling everyone is gonna start coming to me again for help and saying I'm smart. We had to write some journal entry about the irony in the Scarlett Letter, and our midterm grades are partially depending on that journal entry. Everyone was supposed to vote for the entry that best represented the irony of certain elements of the story, and of course, for whatever reason, mine won.
I guess it was nice to feel smart again for once, it's been a really long time since I've really felt that smart. I just wish I could feel that way about my art, I suddenly feel so limited in my skills. *sigh*
Ah well, that leads me to something I suddenly realized earlier, too... I've always admired those in class who seem to be able to say smart things and speak up about things like they really know what they are talking about. I realized that when it comes down to books an analyzing literature and stuff like that, I AM that person I admire. It never occurred to me before today that I'm that way with books.. I almost always know the answer, and I never have to study for tests on books we read. Everyone else freaks out because they haven't studied. I hardly ever even pay attention!! >_<!!!
So weird... Too bad I can't be that way with all my other subjects.. (I sometimes am with history stuff, though!)
Ah! And away from the subject of school, I just have to say this 'cause I can't escape the subject. It wouldn't be me not to include this.
It seems me and Davis get closer to each other every day, and I really like the feeling that I can trust him. That honestly is hard to come by with me... I can say ANYTHING to him and he doesn't mind. I honestly have never had that sort of relationship with anyone before... Kinda sad, really. But it's also really amazing to me when I step back and look at it. I really do like feeling this comfortable about someone, since I don't even feel comfortable with my own parents. I trust my cats more than I trust them. That's REALLY sad.. >_<;;
Oh well, I guess I'll stop bugging everyone about this. I'm sure Rosette would gag if she read that. (Geez, we aren't perverted in our posts on creatures, it's not even a hint of it!! And stop stating that I'm more than obsessed!! IT'S CALLED LOVE! gonk !!!)
 Hoshi Okami · Tue Mar 07, 2006 @ 11:44pm · 2 Comments |
