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i forgot i didnt tell u guys. i've changed from japanese to korean, somewat. still for japan just not as much. story below:
so if u didnt know or forgot, i am an oreo which means im black but act of another race. my white friends say i act asian and my asian friends say i act white. so its up to u how i rlly act. anyways:
so some time last week i started rlly lookin up fan info on this band member whose band i got into quite awhile ago (Yamada Ryosuke from Hey! Say! JUMP!) *cough cough* so i found this one website and i was readin up on the few category/subject things they had and there was one that was talking about his preferred girl and it was all like - this is actually the only thing i remember from that section - it said he preferred "white-skinned girls". worse thing like ever for me to read. so as u can imagine i was like crushed and all my love for japan kinda faded from that since thats actually always been discouraging me to ever go to japan, the extremely low amount of blacks there. and since im already pretty self-concious that would just make things a million times worse. anywhom, i also checked out two other pplz info while i was there: Okamoto Keito and Chinen Yuri. Chinen doesnt like orange and wants a girl who can dance, i like orange and i just learn the steps of japanese stuff, not rlly a natural dancer. Okamoto speaks fluent english but hates speaking it so that just added injury to insult or insult to injury, which ever. So the end result was me giving up on Hey! Say! JUMP! and focusing on koreans since I lived in Seoul for like 2 weeks when i was like 4 or something. plus they were all older than me. so if i obsess now, im gonna focus on my age. so now im focused on this korean band, THE BOSS or Dae Guk Nam Ah specially Jay, Karam and Mika. but japanese was "technically" the second language I learned the words and stuff for and korean is harder to hear clearly but my friend's gonna teach me. srry this was so long but thats the story. and congrats to whoever reads this whole thing smile