i want out and i want out NOW!!!!!! things are confusing. so ocnfusing. one min my partents are yelling at me say ing im a disgusting child and shouldnt of been born and then 2 seconds after wards there telling what a good"child" i am. lies thats all i hear lies. there voices get sickingly sweet. i cant take it. the other day gary yells at me beuse i want paying attention to him talk when i was drawing. he begins to talk and say that i dont care for anyone that everyone that talks to me is put through hell beause im so in grateful. i felt bad. real bad. to the point where id rather hang my slef than put people through pain. and then a hour later he askes me.." courtney, where did your smile go?" i just stand there looking at him. i couldnt beleive it. i try so hard to make everyone happy. i try hard to pretend everything is alright but if you know me well im not a good actor. i need to get away. i need to fing my "home" cuz my home is not here. i just want to be happy.
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