i am so fustrated. you love me, you love me not, you love me, you love me not. parents. i hate parents. my mother is a b***h from hell but i love her, gary doesnt care to were i would get hit by a car and he'd laugh but i still love him. my dad doesnt talk to me in three months and finally calls when i have a friend over. but i still love him. my sister wants me to figure everything out for her and ends up being a total a** but still i love her. going to nikki's was so relaxing. sure there was yelling at aaron but it was better than this place people call home. its NOT my home. its offical my mom and gary are getting a divorce and it sucks. im practically running everything. my mom does nothing. today ashley was crying cuz she has her time of the month. and it tore me up inside. i gave her some pain pills but i just wanted her to stop crying. i ust want to have a peaceful life. at nikki's i had one nightmare, one. here i have one every night. i feel like screaming and pulling my hair out. i cant eat anything. each time i do . i feel like pukeing my guts out. but i try to eat. not to mention blood that i puked up last week. i dont know whats wrong with me. i started carving on my stress board but i cant take everything in so fast. i know that some people love me but im scared that they'll end up like my parents. once schools out. im leaving for a while. to spend time wit friends. i really hope i dont ******** anything up.
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