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You ever think about how ******** unlikely it is you'll ever find that special someone? Just think about all the people in the world... How likely is it you'll come across that one person? Or hell, just someone close! Especially when you're deathly shy and overly cautious like I am. It's ******** depressing. And then... Then I find someone, and I really can see myself with them for at least a long time, then... It's over, and fast. And then you see someone happy, or worse, that person happy with someone else... And it hurts. It ******** hurts. Your happy for them, 'cause they were lucky enough to find it, but God does it hurt like hell. And it's worse with the "let's stay friends" thing... Because you can't turn them down, 'cause you still care about them and want to be friends, but the idea of talking to them, hearing about them happy with someone else... Even just the idea hurts. Sometimes I wonder if I'm even cut out for a relationship... I have so many flaws...