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i dont even know who i anymore, what i feel anymore
going in and out of this phase in a haze
my minds getting lost in my thoughts
they arent mine cuz i've lost myself, who am i?
i dont understand what i feel how i feel
because i wanna lose control
i wanna dissapear
but im not going anywhere, im stayin right here
what am i doing, i dont know
everythings mixed up and nothing makes sense
its all confused
where did it all go? what happened with my heart?
it looked into my mind and saw who i was
left an empty place that i filled with grief
the place that was left grew even bigger
a nothing filled me up and took me over
yea maybe to you im not any different
but if someone looked inside me
they might see how much i've been suffering
how i just cant take it
everyday seems like a chore to put on another mask
to say im "ok"
nobody has seen what my lifes done to me
spinning into depression falling even deeper
nobodies gonna see her
just a little white girl and outsider
who doesnt know the pain
or the terrors and life of someone rock bottem
i wanna be what i never can what i never will
who would even look twice at someone like that?
ha, not me. no ones gonna look twice at something so discusting.