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i hate seeing him like this.. and she is breaking him.. im doing to best i can to help him but i never have been enough to any1. i think thats y i usually give up. I dont even know wat the goal is any more.. i have no idea wat im trying to reach and how far away i am from it. im trying to change my ways but at the same time i want it so badly.. my family, friends, and even I hate to see me like that, wen i do that. but i just want the rush of re-leaf so badly! and i wish on every star at night for the smallest bit of hope... maybe, hopefully 1 day. all this would fade away... </3