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I lied I can't stop writing. I can't stop thinking. Please don't hate me. What will it take for you to fall in love with me? What will it take for you to admit it? Please stop talking to me, don't ever stop talking to me. I love you. I'm doing my best not to cry over you again, as if you were mine. You haven't been 'mine' in a long time. I had to go and mess up. I keep messing up because I want to get out all of the bad things that could happen so we could be perfect again. That's what I want. I want to work out whatever it is that makes us not work and make us work again before we are together so everyone will envy us and wish they were us. And we'd be happy and in love and we'd spend our nights in each others' arms forever. Why do I want you so badly? I've had you before, it just isn't enough. I want you all the time. I want you no matter what you've done, who you've been with, anything. I want to be with you. Will this feeling pass? Am I being young and rushing into this? I doubt it, it's been over a year and I still feel the same...