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No one will understand, the pain I feel on an almost daily basis, I feel like people in this world only spout lies, for instance, a person will say 'I'll do anything for my friends', but if this person would do anything for their friend, why is it that they don't see their friend's feelings? If they'd really do anything, they'd ask them what's wrong, and if the person says 'Nothing, nothing's wrong' they should be the one person of all their friends to notice and say 'Don't lie to me' and if they still deny nothing's wrong, why not talk to them more and hang around them alot, and see if their feelings don't change.

I freakin hate how people can say stuff like that and not mean it, and I hate that I'm one of the many people who're ignored, it really pisses me off. I mean s**t, my own damn teachers see that I'm hurt, and it's ******** sad as hell that they can see it and my friends can't even see the damn frown I wear every god damn day. But that's just something to make a spark, the thing that creates a flame is that if their friend is hurting, they'll notice it right off the ******** bat and be there for them, consult and comfort them, and when it comes to me it's like I'm a damn wall, a nobody. I'll sit their in class, or on the bus, or at a lunch table, and I'll feel like I'm invisible. No person should feel like that, no one...absolutely no one. It's not right. It's just completely unfair.

If it's anyone who should be treated this way, it's the hypocritical people who say they'll do anything for their friends, it's them who should be treated this way, let those people get a taste of what one of their friends might feel, what I always feel. So that way when they get treated this way they won't be so damn blind to the emotions and actually notice it, if you're reading this and you just happen to be one of these people, STOP BEING SO ******** BLIND AND ACTUALLY BE A DAMN FRIEND, not some little ******** poser, it's people like you that we have so many people committing suicide. Hopefully I've made you realize something, if you hate me then so be it. I'm just speaking my ******** mind.

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