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Yesterday was a pretty bad day for me. Yet, in a way it was alright, but let me focus on the bad things.

First Meltdown
I went to the library and found out I had a 30.00 dollar fee on my card, and I had to pay it of with the emergency twenty I have in my wallet.

NOW I HAVE NO MONEY AND I AM POOR (well thats overexaggerating I do have money in the bank but as for money that I carry around I have little to nothing)

Second Meltdown
My mom wanted me to clean up my room and throw my knickacks away. I got upset and started argueing with her. We apoligized later but I still disagree that my room is a mess. It's just...overdecorated

Third Meltdown
I got upset toward my nii-san....again crying I'm not proud when I do that, but I just get so jelous when nii-san acts like nii-san is showing more affection toward others than me. crying It makes me feel unloved (which isn't true I am loved I have to remember that)

Even though nii-san says nii-san loves all nii-sans friends equally I can't help but feel nii-san likes some friends more than others....like Tamaki sad

I'm sorry Tamaki I don't want to be jelous. I suppose I ought to try not to be

I love my nii-san very much. I want like Tamaki too.

I also don't want to get people upset or annoyed or fed up with me sad