I was stuck in my room all week, working on my college course and masturbating every four hours in between. I finally finished my 1000 word cause and effect essay, and I was so excited that I wanted to celebrate.
I ended up at the nearby walmart with nothing to do. I would often stare at couples and envy them. I would stare at teenagers who had friends and envey them. I sat on a metal bench for thirty minutes before an old lady came and started preaching to me about God, and Saton's lies and Bull Sh*t BBQS. I got up and left walmart crying. I felt so misserable that I layed myself down on old missionary road untl I got tired of waiting for a car to come and kill me.
I don't know what I did to diserve myself. I was an oldest child who was savagly abused till I was deaf in my left ear. I suffered my parent's divorce back and front again with little councling.. Im stuck in college taking classes I hate, which is surprisingly less that I hate myself.
I went out to cellebrate, and I came back my own worst enemy for the millionth time blah blah blah, nobody care, go jump off a bridge you eemmooo Fagg.
My life sucks and I have no control over my destiny the end
I'll be upstairs masturbating, and crying myself to sleep.
good night
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