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I feel like there's a barrier.
You set it up and it's in my heart.
I'm not able to see anything special in anyone.
All I see is you.
his eyes look like yours.
He has your ears.
Your smile
Your haircut
For christs sake he feels like you when he's on top of me and sweating and I'm hot and I don't know where to put my hands.



Only he's not you.


Only he's never going to be you.


Only..I threw away the one thing I loved.
Because "If you love it set it free, it will come back."


He bounces with every step.
Just like you did when we held hands at the airport, lovey dovey me and you.


You and I made so much heat in that car.
They say, Every time you exhale, a little bit of your soul escapes. Luckily, you almost always inhale it back before anyone else gets to it. Almost.

Ever fogged up a mirror with your breath?
Drew a heart but you didn't know why?
Don't do that.

Don't kiss me there, there and there.
That's where he kissed me.


That's where I said my last goodbye.
That's where I took the pills and
That over there is the bed I sat on when I cut up my wrists and legs.



Such a shame..







..such a shame..


"After how I lost my virginity, I can't imagine sex as anything you would do out of love."