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UGHGHGH
School's stupid
It takes up too much energyyyy gonk
What're you doing today?
Guhhh i'm having a blank.
I REALLY need to find something i'm good at. I seriously have nothing.
Not even at school.. D:
dramallama
I'll let you know when I finally find something..

It came out of nowhere
I was so happy
So unaware
That everything in my life
Could break down
To the fact that
No one ever cared

I was unaware that
I could be so lonely
And I couldn’t cure it
No matter what

I thought every person
Could find their happiness somehow,
Somewhere
But then reality hit
Faster than I wanted
There’s nothing I could have done

I can’t help but believe
I’ll never be happy again.
I’m just in the way.
No body loves me.

Can I change this?
Is it permanent?

It hurts to think about it,
And it hurts otherwise.
I want to be loved,
And I want to be cared for

It may seem like its all for my benefit,
But its not
It’s for people I care about
The people I love
I want to be happy for them
I want them to be happy
But I just can’t do it,
When everyday
I feel like I’m getting shot

Someone save me
It hurts me day and night
I want to love myself
I really, honestly do
But it’s blocked
It’s like I’m drowning in a black, cold sea.

Wow...long sorry. Is it good?? No obviously not razz Why'd I put this on here?