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I wish i had someplace to talk that my sister wouldn't see, just a place that people actually read and will talk to me but no one i know in RL will read. God why am i such a ******** freak? Why do i feel this way? Why do my friends have to be ********. God I'm so angry and sad and i keep having panic attacks and i feel like throwing up half the time. My best friend is either seriously depressed and won't talk to me about it or is faking it to get attention, and i pretend to not care just blowing it off like it means nothing because i don't know how to deal with it, and i'm so ******** depressed and angry and ugh. I don't know how to put it into words and i just want someone to talk to about it but there is no one there for me!