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Dear diary. Mood apathetic
My life is spiraling downward. I couldn’t get enough money to the blood red romance and suffocate me dry concert it sucks cuz they play some of my favorite songs like stab my heart cuz I love u and rip apart my soul and of course stabby rib stab stab and it doesn’t help that I could get my hair to that flippy-thingy there like that guy from that band can do. Some days…
I’m an emo kid nonconforming as can be you’d be nonconforming too if u looked just like me
I have paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I’m almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
Because I feel real deep when I’m dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression, you’ll just call me a f**
Cuz there dudes look like chicks with like dikes
Cuz emo is 1 step below transvestite
Stop my breathing and slit my throat: I must be emo
I don’t jump around when I go to shows: I must be emo
I’m dark and sensitive with low self-esteem
the way I dress makes every day feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make-believe
I stole my sister’s mascara now I’m grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I cant get through a Hoffen Heights album without sobbing
Girls keep braking up with me its never any fun
They say they already have a p***y they don’t need another one
Stop my breathing and slit my throat: I must be emo
I don’t jump around when I go to shows: I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes: I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes: I must be emo
My life is just a black abyss, you know? It’s just so dark. And its suffocating me. Grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip. Tighter than I pair of my little sister’s jeans, which look great on me by the way.
When I get depressed I cut my wrists in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection
I write in a live journal and wear thick-rimmed glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I’m just a bad, cheap, imitation of god
>>>-----in the …>>>> and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I say I like girls I’d only be half right
I look like I’m dead and dress like a homo: I must be emo
Screw x-box I play old school Nintendo: I must be emo
I like to wine and hit my parentals: I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones: I must be emo
My parents don’t get me u know. They think I’m gay just cuz they saw me kiss a guy, well a couple guys. But I mean it’s the 2 thousands, cant 2 or four dudes make out with each other without being gay?? I mean chicks dig that kind of thing anyways. I don’t know diary, sometimes I feel like ur the only 1 that gets me, you’re my best friend.
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