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I always knew that I liked him, I just never admitted it to myself until now. In the summer he would always come over to my house and ask if I wanted to go to the park or on a walk. I would always rush out with him and we would talk, about school and where we lived before Germany. We shared many secrets, some that I haven't shared with anybody else. But when summer ended and we went back to school, are relationship distanced. We now hang out with different groups, and I don't know why, but every time I am reminded that he doesn't like me, it makes me want him more. I don't even know why I love him. He's nothing special to anybody else, just a normal guy. But to me, he's everything. I love the way he smiles at me at the most random of times. I love the way he frowns and acts anxious when I tell him i'm not sitting at his table today. I love the way he flips his hair when the wind blows it in his face. Am I the only one who notices him, the way he does these things differently? I must not be, because he has had several girlfriends this year. And although I am over the top jealous of these girls, I don't hate them. Some of them are close friends. But sometimes I just wish that maybe I would have told him I liked him in the summer, when maybe he liked me..........................................