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ok so this has nothing to do with anyone on here but i need to vent! maybe asian sensation might know what this is for but dont bother him about it! and dont tell them either asian! theyd already know if i wanted them to know...

what you put on facebook.....
was that about me? i cant help but feel...believe it is about me. is that selfish? im sorry. really i am. i didnt mean for you to feel like that. i didnt me for you to get the wrong impression! was i playing this like it was a game? i dont know, but ive never had to deal with anything like this. well maybe i have. something similar and i totally destroyed that. and now im haunted everytime i see that person. i bet hes haunted too. im so stupid and careless when it comes to things like this! i always ruin it and end up regretting something. i wish i could talk to you in person but thats too far away. by then i bet everything will be really screwed up. so right now i want you to know. i want you to know that im really sorry and ill try to find every chance i can to explain to you and apologize. i hope i havent hurt you or crushed you in anyway. but i bet i did. also i want you to know i feel really bad and...and..well i ran out of words. so next time i see or chat with you we can make things better. i hope. so, sorry.

now i feel i wrote that to an older person. even to myself!
damn now im depressed. but this is probably what i get.
see this is why i feel like im such a horrible person!