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So much time I've wasted.
I can truly say I never thought it would come to this.
Never would I doubt you, but the truth kept smacking me in the face.

Reality. You never stopped to think and you ripped us apart.
How could you? Now our time is gone but still it's breaking my heart.

Tears run down as I think of the days we've had,
and the memories will last forever,
you and I will die and go our separate ways.

You are the one.
You are the wrong one.
Breaking the mold.
Going your own way.
All I feel, betrayal.

So much time I've wasted, and I never thought it'd come to this.

Apology.
We had something great, then it was washed away.
We had something more, then I can explain.
I'm sorry. No! We had something great, then it was washed away.
No! Not all friendships last, the genuine are harder to take.
No! Time to start again, hope someday you'll think of me.
No! The end reality, I know someday I'll think of you


Went to see Underworld Evolution, which was quite good I'll have you know. Saw someone that I haven't seen in along time at the movies. Not sure if they saw me, not really important if they did or not. Though part of me kind of hoped that they had. Not everyday that you see someone from what seems like such a distant time. Bare with me because I'm mostly freewriting right now, haven't planned this out at all.

When I look at how I am now, and look back at what was in all reality a little less than a year ago, I see two different people. Not different in the biggest ways I suppose, but my train of thought has changed, and other subtle things. And I sort of have to wonder how I got on back then. What had me so distracted? Why was I so unfocused? And the answer is simple but ambiguous all at the same time.

Isn't funny how time slips? Indeed it is. Sola Eternity...the lonely eternity. Not entirely true anymore. If you look up "Sola" in a latin dictionary, or at least the one I used, it comes up with mostly negative things. They all seem to deal with loneliness or being alone in some way. "Eternam" not really a latin word unless you make it "Aeternam", but basically it means eternally or everlasting or without end. That's saddening in a way isn't it? That someone would give themself a name like that. Surely they must have a reason. And I do. It reminds me of something I should do well to never forget. Sola is a root in latin so it does have a few words with other meaning, like wandering.

And I suppose that's how I sort of feel. Wandering through time, in my own eternity. Days slip by and blur together, and when you see someone from not so long ago, it feel like you haven't seen them in forever.

Amazing how much seeing one face caused me to type, but I'll end here for now. I feel like I'm rambling and I doubt many people will read this.