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yeah!! oh yeah!! >> i dont believe in love anymore << honto? >> hmm... << dammit!! pakan-on tkag apol krn!!!! downByTheLake--- · Tue Dec 15, 2009 @ 10:24am · 2 Comments


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	i love you i love you too words i used to say and now i dont understand what it means some would say that pain and love goes hand in hand pain is a beautiful thing.. when you feel it, it means you're alive pain is obsessive, addictive... and yet... so is love. you love someone that you could give you're life for that person's sake you go through hell to reach heaven... but what is a person's worth? i wonder if there is a person who keep on loving and never thinking or wanting to be loved in return.. because when you love,, there is this feeling of wanting to be loved back, even if one wouldnt say it or express it to the other... waiting for someone for a long time is painful, you wouldnt know if that person's worth the wait, you wouldnt know what opportunities you've given away never know.. never will,, unless you make the first move... the first move can make or break dreams... sometimes, they say, its better to wait for the other person to make it, and other would say you should do it rather than wait,,, but i prefer to make the first move,, waiting is uncertain... and if you wait to long... you'll miss everything, i have loved, unfortunately, i've loved too much that i havent spare some love for myself i have loved, and i have tasted what its like to be loved and betrayed i have loved, and left alone... love is wasted love is empty love is painful love is just a word. all my life, the people around me taught me to love.. showed my how to love and i wonder if i too can love, my time came, i found a person to share that wonderful feeling it came over me... LOVE everyday is a dream, i wake up having a big smile on my face! excited to go to school excited... about everything life has never been better but then i was naive... i woke up, and i got scared.. scared for the two of us... scared that they would take her away from me... scared that everybody would know about us and hate us, scared that i will ruin her dreams scared that god would curse us, scared for crossing the line... scared... i got scared... and that's my first biggest mistake. and i found salvation i met him, he was good. he loved me, he cared about me... he was perfect... and yet, i couldnt love him, then i realize i have to use him.. just for a short span of time... enough to save us... i kept the plan to myself, never knowing that i would shatter two people's heart i thought breaking his heart and leaving him would be easy... it wasnt.. i lived my life feeling guilt and remorse for myself he loved me, and i hurt him... i hurt him because i love her more that anything else... but what i did... hurt her as well, i cant forgive myself.. until now... i deserve to be left alone. she found someone else, i cant blame her at all. he found another woman, i was glad. loving is never easy... i dont want to love again. i have nothing more to give. Offline Die_You_Sucker · Community Member · Sun Feb 07, 2010 @ 06:48am


	hmmmm.... akow imung pasabot ani??? crying Offline Die_You_Sucker · Community Member · Mon Feb 08, 2010 @ 04:33am

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