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Have you ever just wanted to end it all?
You just feel like it couldn't get any worse?
Like if your favorite pets dies then a close family member dies? That would suck.

Well, that's kind of how I feel right now.
I just found out this morning that an old dog I use to love so much got attacked by another dog and was killed.

Rest In Peace: Sid heart

Not only did I have to go through that, when I got home, I found out my mother got laid off.... Again.
Now I might have to leave all of the wonderful friends I made in South Carolina.
It may be a boring state but the people here are some of the coolest people I've ever met.

I don't know what to do. I keep telling myself to stay positive.

Stay positive.

That's harder than it sounds when you've been through it. When I had so much hope that my mother would find a job where we use to live so we wouldn't move but she never got the jobs. So we moved and I left my friends and family.
How do I stay positive when I tried before?

All my hope is pretty much gone.

What will I do if I have to leave again?

I hope I won't have to leave.

Please, please, please let me stay.

I'm not quite sure who I'm begging to. Just thin air I guess.

If you're one of the people I might be leaving soon, I'm sorry and I love you and I won't forget you. =]

Hey, maybe I'm writing this for nothing. My mom might get a job and I'll stay.
I really hope that's the case.

Thank you for who ever is actually reading this. I don't write journals very often. Haha.... I'm sorry you had to listen to me wine about my life. I don't do it often I swear. Just let me this once, mk? Love you!

Stay positive.

Always. =]