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i feel so sick. ive been numb for the longest time, so frozen. my heart wasnt beating. now that it is, i feel sick. i hate being alive. my stomach is in knots, like ive been doing bad things, which i haven't been. i want to curl up and die. it hurts so bad. i feel the war inside me. numb to thawed. the thing is, is that i cant die. ever. i have to live untill my friends all die first. i cant leave them. they have to die first. i have to take care of them, and make sure they are ok, make sure they are happy and loved. i cant leave them.
i want to cry,
but i cant,
the tears dont flow,
i want to say i love you,
but i just dont know,
i want to be good,
but it just dosnt show.
how can i be anything,
without hurting someone?
how can i stay sane,
if i have to be,
so many people at once?
its like i have one clipped wing,
and one working lung.
i dont know anymore.
i cant stay and i cant go.
 MadameX_XLust · Wed Nov 11, 2009 @ 12:55am · 0 Comments |
