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I just need someone to listen, please.

I'm at a very low point in life. I almost feel like I don't want to go on anymore, to fade away into smoke, not exist. I feel alone in life. I feel as if nobody could ever understand me. But... there is only one thing that I cling to in life: I want to belong, but I dont want to change. I want to have a reason to go on. I'm sometimes envious of other people's seemingly perfect lives. Still... I always seem to have a speck of hope inside of me. I'm not going to give up; I'll just keep waiting for things to get better. Every time I attempt to make my life better myself, my efforts explode in my face. So I guess that means I have to wait for things to get better themselves, huh?
It's pathetic when you don't have anyone to talk to at all... I don't want to burden my friends. My parents won't listen to me.
ugh... whatever. Too much change, I guess. A little brother and my sister going off to college. Those two things threw my life into the hell bin.
ah... ohwell.