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it went like this....

i was at this place, i have no idea where. but i heard his voice so i turned around. he was standing there, looking at me and smiling with his arms open for me. i said "oh my god!" and i jumped right into his arms and i started crying like crazy. so he tried to calm me down by telling me that he was there for me and everything was okay and that he loved me. but the my mother popped up out of nowhere and started screaming at him to get away from me. at that moment he disappeared. i remember running around, still crying, (harder this time), trying to find him but i couldnt.

after that i woke up and the pain in my heart felt like someone was grabbing it and twisting. theres no way im ever going to let go of him. i cant think right anymore. i have this empty feeling that wont go away until i can have him back again. and its all my moms fault. because, she doesnt understand the love i feel for him and him for me. well, atleast he used to. was all that he told me bullshit? or did he really mean it? i dont know anymore...im pretty sure he doesnt give two-shits about it anyway...