Every one used to worry about me.. because I told them I planned to marry.. and I am only 15. They worried that I was rushing into a realtionship.. that I dind't know him to well.. I would tell them that I did.. that he never has made me cried...
I thought it would be wonderful to live with him. To be with him finally.. but I was wrong.. almost every time he gets any free time from his parents he spends it on the computer.. if I come in and ask to cuddle he complains that I always do that.. and I would say for fifteen or ten minutes.. and he would be like.. and that would turn into two hours.. and it wouldn't happen.. he would just ignore me that night.. and then think he could come in when he is kicked off the computer and everything be fine..
Today he had played on the gawd damned computer for 11 hours.. and spent maybe 30 mintues with me. He just blows me off.. and now almost every night I go to my room and cry.. part of me hopes he will come and comfort me.. but I know he won't.. he says even though he ignores me for the computer sometimes.. he loves me.. I doubt that every day now.. I don't really think he does.. and I don't really care any more.. soon I will be moving again.. and I don't care.. I just have to get away..
 Neduls · Mon Jan 16, 2006 @ 03:36am · 0 Comments |
