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how long has it been since i wrote one of these things? well, it doesnt matter. homecoming went by LONG ago, along with the zombie invasion of barre town and barre city. holed up in a room for a month with a chaingun and 3 other guys trying to survive getting killed by mindless zombies really takes it out of a guy. anyway. i'm doing a volunteer job for my school, just painting some blank space. i never though i could have so much fun at school. despite how hectic my week was and my next week is going to be, i still mange to find time to hang out with all of my friends. i mainly want a lot of time to hang out with my girlfriend( heart ) though. right now its saturday night and i have nothing better to do than look up cheap internet porn and read a crazy awesome webcomic( titled: Least I Could Do) its pretty funny stuff. (yes the porn too xd ) i feel kinda bad because i cant go see all of her games, and she keeps asking me to be able to do things when i have no source of income right now and i hate it when her parents just hand me 40$ and say go to dinner and a movie.....i cant stand borrowing money from people. i have no ways to pay it back and i feel inclined to. nevertheless, she is hellbent on going to the corn maze and she keeps guilting me to it with the sad face. i cant say no to it. i still love her more than anything else though. maybe a little less persistency, but i love her with all my heart. i expected you may eventually read this nikki (god knows no one else will) and im sorry if any of it hurts your feelings, i dont mean it to. i just dont have the heart to tell you straight up.....(i'm a lame boyfriend). i hate how we've been arguing (or dissagreeing or whatever i called it) but i feel like i'm always doing something wrong. she hardly ever has time to talk to me at night because on top of field hockey, she has 12-somthin' hours of homework every night( SLIGHT exageration) i like being able to talk to her and i ant to do it more often, but she's so busy all the time. ok, im getting freakin' typers crapm writing all this, so you gotta wait until i decide to remember to write in my journal again.......