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More Ranting?
...Isn't it sad, I only ever come here to rant... I do own a blog for this purpose but I'm not sure on whether I actually want to maintain it. Starting something is one thing but keeping up with it is another... sweatdrop
Well, the thing is I've been dying to post again but I just can't find the time/motivation to do it. I never was a really sociableperson so to start over on Gaia is a bit demanding. And never mind restarting the whole blog thing.
Anyway, here's a recap of my seemingly miserable life. (This feeling is always temporary anyways...don't worry I haven't turned suicidal yet! xd )
- Got Internship in March, boss was strict but pretty awesome.
__- Internship ended in June, boss hired me.
- No job during the summer
__- Got in a fight with my father-figure-person...(dang I don't even want to call him "father" anymore...)
__- Got out of house, lived with Kitty (boyfriend)
- Got back to old house for a day in attempt to "talk things over"
__- Got officially kicked out of the house with a 4000$ debt on shoulders
- Went back to job
__- Job is hard! scream
__- Boss yells at me every day I come in
__- Work very hard on spare time
And more details on that last is where the rant begins...
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I was told before I left for my vacation that I'd be a social marketer. And as I come back, I was backup graphic designer/programmer. Shortly after, I'm assigned as an SEO (search engine optimizer) with no knowledge in the field. It's been approximately 2 months of that. I still have to research this very much and the boss is still very unsatisfied at my research.
I understand his frustration, he did train me during 4 weeks and traffic on our 200+ sites grew because we did something together and not because I did something. Of course, ever since then, traffic either dropped or stayed steady.
However, I am still at school, I have been lokking up things on the Internet and reading books. But it's kind of hard to actually look for things when you don't quite know what to look for or where to begin.
Also, I was told that I'm being judged against an experienced SEO who has also been hired by the boss.
So, right now I'm on probation, coming in once a week but expected to produce more result than coming in twice a week. If I fail within the month, I'm fired. At this point, I'm kind of sick of poking in the dark and I feel like quitting my job. However, I do like our sites and the people that I work with. This is very troubling...
This job is becoming hard beyond belief... And unlike last time, it's not the boss that I don't like. It's that I don't feel that I can provide the boss with the results that he wants.
Now, meanwhile, more things happened. One of which is the death of my grandmother. Now, my brother recently started spite-ing me for not going to the funeral. (The reason for not going by the way, was that I had a quiz and I would be missing 2 classes that day.)
Don't misunderstand, however, I had all the intention in the world to actually go visit my grandmother's memorial plate and give some offerings and prayers. I do "had" since due to his spite, my brother refuses to give me the location of the memorial plate...
But to me, a ceremony to remember, or he calls it "respect" someone who passed away is not as important as my schooling. As it was, I had also paid my respect to my grandmother silently at home that night.
Well, anyhow... ranting is ranting... To anyone reading this, I hope that it wasn't too painful.</div>
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