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my lyf is so crappy.
i try to be who i wanna be and i get shot down.
i try to stand up for myself and people tell me theiy're disappointed in me.
i get good grades, and no one cares.
i help others and they dont care.
i encourage other but they dont encourage me.
i get angry and i'm being mean.
i cray and i'm a big baby.
i bleed and i'm weak.
i ignore those who hurt me and i'm being rude.

i hate it. i dont need that. even when my dad lies to me continually and makes ME feel bad wen he grovels at my feet only to hurt me again.

i dunno wuht to do anymore.
i really dont know how much longer i can try being happy for eveyone.... or maybe being happy and hyper's my mask.
omg.
i dont even know myself.

cry