September 20, 2009 Saturday 12:03 PM
September 17, 2009
Sennyo,
... Kevin's dead.
September 18, 2009
Sennyo,
The tears wouldn't stop. It took a short while for it to sink in, but once it had I just start crying and sobbing so much. I hadn't thought that I'd ever see him again, or at least much, after graduation, but after seeing him in that comatose state at the university's hospital something just struck me. When I went to school it played in my head that Ali and I would embrace each other and cry, and just that happened. I walked onto the second school bus and Mr. H said to me, 'Stephanie have you heard—." while I asked him "Mr. H. have you heard about...Kevin?" Neither of us really finished our sentence. The day before I was on facebook when I found out. Apparently Ali had found out before play rehearsal. Shadow said (on facebook), 'You should have seen the change in her face from pure joy to intense tears in the matter of a second. It scared me. I wish I could have just sat there and waited with her. But she wouldn't let me. But we sat in the entrance hallway hugging for 1...0 minutes before she told me what happened. I was so worried.' (an actual quote). When I got to school, I cut through the cafe to get to the other side and then to my lockers. The shock still wearing on me. I wore black panty-hose, the white uniform shirt and my newer black shoes with the slight heel.
I went into the cafeteria. Ali, Luna, Maggie, and others sat at the table in our usual corner. No seats were available so I sat alone in the table diagonal. I brought out the ring design I had been working on the past few days but could not bring the motive to continue. I saw Ali get up and walk over to me. I stood up and we hugged, both of us crying. I saw some preppy girls looking at us. I think they knew what it was we were crying about by the whispers they made to each other. The hug lasted several seconds and she then pulled down a chair to my right, brought over her things, and sat next to me. Megan T. came by, cheerful and oblivious, and rhetorically asked Ali if she was crying about the homework because it was so hard. 'No Megan, it's not that." She had said it twice but still Megan ignored this and she turned away when someone called for her attention. I believe it was Shadow that sat to my left. Kristen came by and talked to Ali and me for a short while, she gave us both hugs. She then looked to the corner table and asked if the rolls of black ribbon were being given away. Someone, probably Luna, said yes. Kristen cut off a piece, but she claimed it too short so I took it. On my way to homeroom, I gave myself pony-tails on both sides, my left with the ribbon, the right with my black hair-band.
I cried some during homeroom, Luna was very kind to me. Annie offered a hug during social studies, I declined for we were in class.
I never thought I'd see him much again after those chance encounters at the Sugoicon and other places, but now it's for sure that we'll never meet again. I guess I can't keep that promise I made to him that I'd get him a souvenir from Sugoicon. His body is being kept breathing by a ventillator, probably to preserve what healthy organs he has left for donating. No funeral plans have been made yet.
[End Log] 1:47 PM
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