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January 8, 2006
Sometimes I just wonder why me? I don't know what I did, I must have done something really bad in my life but I have no idea what, because I don't know what I did to deserve all this crap. People just won't leave me the hell alone. Kaz does something nice for me which is rare, and others have to go and mess it up for me. I was expecting that, but not to this extent. They always seem to do something to make Kaz furious and he takes it all out on me. They just wouldn't leave my thread alone and Kaz finally just let them do what they want, even though he said he'd fix it for me if they did anything. And then he got mad at me, like it was all my fault that other people did this. I really don't know what I could have done to prevent them from doing that, I didn't do anything more to make them do it. They do it regardless. But of course it's all my fault and Kaz is mad at me once again, and I've just felt awful all day, and I don't know how I'm going to fix this mess with him. Once he gets mad like that it's so hard getting him to not be mad anymore. What's upsetting is that it was other people messing with crap that brought this about, it's not like I went and did something to make him angry myself. It was pretty much beyond my control and I don't know how to keep things like that from happening. And it's always the same stupid people that cause problems with Kaz and me. Everything would have been fine between us if it weren't for them.
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