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Well, tommorow's the day I go to school. gonk I've finished my homework just in time, well before midnight-- guess that's a relief for me...whew. +_+

Parents announced yet again that we're moving somewhere else, closer to the urban areas, so I have a week of communication via online before this computer goes bye-bye. crying
It probably won't be that bad; It'll just be a time of 2-3 days which I won't be online to contact anyone online...

Lately I've been feeling strange.
No, it's not physical problems or such, it's just...
I can't seem to tell the difference between reality and feelings anymore...it's like a whole huge blob of emotions, equally different, equally exact jumbled up into an image I cannot decipher or encrypt.
Not like a feeling of emptiness, something else...
And the books I've read...
Lately and repeatedly, The Snow Queen and The Summer Queen, by Joan D. Vinge. Sure, it's a work of fiction and fantasy.
Sure, it's suppose to be a story. But I feel....unknown. Mad. Sad for the works...
And it's getting more complicated the more I think about it. Unknown to me, a story so filled with...bittersweet grief and happiness...
I just realized that I am, in some ways....related to the characters flowing within the novel. Not personality, probably...
But the outcome and progress.
A world of endings that I can and cannot bear at the same time.
Something that struck me, when I finished the books, and find myself hard to settle the book down properly.

How can I describe this feeling by mere words...?
...
....I sound....strange, don't I...? sweatdrop

...anyways,

I'll respond to pms asap. Need to get some sleep so I would be ready for class in 6 hours...
Crap. And I don't even know which class starts today....blast. gonk