I will survive this heartbrake. I'll show them both that I can stay on my 2 feet. Right now I'm just so full of confidence and energy. I know I can get through this. This new experience that I had has left me not weak, but strong. It's left me with how can I say this... new sense of "power" of peace and comfort and strength of will.. I know for a fact that what they did was wrong. I won't let them bring me down cause of their actions. Otherwise they would've won. I shouldn't let them get to me. instead of letting it feed off my weakness I'll use it to my own power, to bring me up instead of down.
I've learned my lessons well. they told me that I was acting/am like a child but then thats just the way I am and I love it. I'd be boring otherwise.
Lessons well learned
#1 Don't trust anyone
- had a best friend for about a year. never knew she had it in her to turn her back on me and betray me....welll baisically dont' get to close to anyone...
#2 I know better now not to let my emotions control me.
#3 Jelousy is a killer
#4 Listen to my intuition when it tells me not to do something.
-it hit me hard in the head 2 and I ignored the feeling. won't let that happen again.
#5 Don't let a guy bring me down. So who cares if the guy shows intrest in me. I'll stick to my own judgments and not let them make them for me.
#6 I can be a...excuse my language...I can be a pure annoying b***h.
I still have feelings for him yes, and probably will continue haveing them. but the feelings are hopefully dying down to where if I see him again it won't be hard.
When I see my Ex-best friend at church today I'm going to make sure she see's that she didn't ruin me. I know that my confidence and outgoing ness already makes her jelous. its something that she craves. But she doesn't have that strong enough will power. HOWEVER, I DO. I'll make her even more Jealous. I know how I can make her wish she hadn't of done what she did. I'll make her be sorry. ((she had told me she was sorry for what she had done that tuesday night. But she wasn't actually sorry cause later on I had found out that they had gone out on a date after she had dropped me off and had gone on another one the next day. She wasn't sorry at all. She was going to try and keep it secret from me I'm sure.))
So ha to them and damn them both cause I've got a new personality thats coming to surface and I'm going to be enjoying every last minute of it. This goody-good girl they once knew is forever gone. I mean some parts of her I'll still have, but not the ones that will bring me down. oh no,no,no, that part of the old girl is gone.
Today is a new day. A brand new start to a brand new personality. And nothing and no one will change that fact.
cheese_whine
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