so I just had to endure a night of happiness and horror. my best friend just backstabbed me by making out with a guy that I told her that I had a crush on, in front of me for a full 40min. in the car. which I had to endure. and right now my heart feels like it had fallen into a million pieces that can't be mended. but alas, it is slowly mending. But my soul will still be shattered.
I've realized something however from this horrible experience. Jelousy is a killer. it ruins the heart and soul
I have sworn of men. This doesn't mean I'm turning Lesbian or Bi, it just means that I am no longer looking for a relationship. I have sworn of Dating and Marriage. Its not for me. Even if it would've happened it probably would've ended up in divorce or a cheat anyhow.
For now on I'm only focusing on School and Church. Its time for another personality...boy was I liking this one.... but this personality will do me no good now. So I solemnly swear to all who read this here on gaia, that I shall be
SINGLE FOR ALWAYS AND FOREVER
no more shall I be hurt by a man. no longer shall I focus on men. no longer shall I trust people, and it shall not waver for anyone. its a cruel, cruel drama world out there, and I shall take no more part of it. I'm done with it all.
Adieu
Your deprest heartbroken gaian,
Moraifa
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