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Memento Mori

	A technicolorful life.
	A technicolorful life.

August of 2009 went out- for me, at least- with a soft sigh. It was nice. I have this major thing with the first and last day of each month because I really love fresh beginnings- all Aries in that regard as well. The middle weeks I drag a** when it comes to getting anything done but the first and last week, well...I am all fire.

With September here, and a brand new month laid before me like a chess board, I feel the need to put myself back in control of all things Flare, and I have finally, finally, finally- after years of not having the patience to understand this- gotten it through my thick skull that in order to fix things, I am going to have to baby-step it; go at it a little bit at a time, because as someone who is so much more wise then she knows told me somewhat recently, things did not get so messed up overnight so it's gonna take some time to fix things.

Time, dedication, patience and understanding.

With that in mind I create this entry with one simple goal for September (and period, really)- to start taking control of my life back.

What is on the agenda today is rather simple, at least on the surface:

* Work a shift and then spend the time after with my friends, playing our new Marvel (the same RPing game that gave life to Flare; believe me when I say I could write volumes on how sitting at another table with a new world opening its arms to a new group just messes with my mind on levels I had no idea a mind could be messed with on.) and just basically shenanigan'ing the night away.

* Save whatever needs to be saved or backed-up before midnight, because at that point I will do my September 2009 back-up. After backing up all my Gaia-related text files I always do a purge of archived stuff that is no longer needed, the RPs that I feel are beyond lost (last month I finally managed to make myself empty my RP folder of an RP that had not been active since 2006. I just really, really hate to give up!), and just generally try to whittle stuff down. I pack-rat on every conceivable level.

* Clean out my music files some- nothing drastic, but just clean some stuff off. I make myself do this every so often because I tend to collect music according to mood and then find myself worrying about space.

* Do my update/clean discs/defrag cycle. Because OCD, that's why.

* Get TWISTED (my main To-Do notebook; I bet no one can figure out what it stands for- if anyone can I swear that I will give you 100,000 gold. Seriously.) back into order; get a handle on all the notes and loose papers floating about. I used to deal with my notes daily but now I just let them pile up and pile up and that really has to stop.

* Completely update my Gaia To-Do Notebook. I need to make a new to-do. Or at the very least mark off what no longer needs to (read: can no longer) be done.

I think that is really about it. I've tidied up the apartment as much as I can at this point. I've promised tomorrow afternoon to my group and then I will prepare my apartment for the week ahead of both it and me...and beyond that it is all a matter of playing catch-up and amping myself up for the work awaiting me.

I have a dear friend coming into town on the second and he will be staying at my place for the week he's here, which means when I am not at work or sleeping I will be with the group; I may actually be able to carve out more online time a few nights this up-coming week but I am not going to bet on it. Right now it looks more like I will have to pick up on stuff after he leaves, simply because I am aware I do not spend or give much time to people so I am making an effort to do just that this week.

I am feeling pretty positive about working out a schedule- with work and everything else going on I have to have a schedule or else I will end up doing something not very nice. I miss having time to do things...and there's only one way to have time and that is to make time.

I love the feel of the challenge that is in the air. I actually feel excited.

God bless me, I actually feel good about things.

· Tue Sep 01, 2009 @ 07:04am · 2 Comments


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	There's always so much I want to say in your reply to your journals... Or even in general, really. I'm sure that you know the main thing that's got my eye though- the mention if that TWISTED notebook. I love making up meanings for acronyms. My main guess is "Things Which I Shall Try to Eventually Do." Not perfect, but perhaps apt? I will come up with others, none if which would likely be right ^-^ That E gives me trouble, though... Ah! Almost forgot to say- I'm glad you were feeling good at the time if writing this, and I dearly hope you are feeling well now, too. heart you lots. Offline · Community Member · Wed Sep 02, 2009 @ 08:19am


	Good for your Flare! I hope you accomplish even a small percentage of your goals! It will be hard but like you said --- baby steps. (: I have no idea what TWISTED means! But Cee's answer sounds about right. hugs I'll be rooting for you. Offline · Community Member · Thu Sep 03, 2009 @ 06:24pm

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