August 23, 2009 Sunday 10:17 PM
My dearest Sennyo,
Oh, this flurry of emotions within this single heart of mine. Tears of joy, grief, fear, desperation. Everything. Did you know? I found out that the writer that I've grown fond of from afar, he's at least 21 years of age or older. He said that he returned to college around last week, so I assumed he was atleast 19 years old or older. Then, he spoke about becoming drunk at the slightest bit of alcohol, so then my assumption came to 21 or older. Such an amazing writer, so capable and talented and humorous.
I'm not going to pass, am I, dearest Sennyo? I've failed you, and every one else. No longer does my heart skip at the thought of writing you/for you.
The Hippo, such a wonderful bo =y he is. An even greater friend. If you and I were One, then I could've cried upon reading his message. The Hippo... he is real, he is so kind, and nice, and endearing. These past few weeks have been hard on him. On the fifth of August, 2009, I had drawn a Graffiti for The Hippo concerning the first of the movies that connected us. On August 23, 2009 (this very early morning/last night), I had drawn another Graffiti concerning the second of the movies that connected us. Both in hopes of cheering him up. He wrote to me then a message of how grateful he was of our friendship, that I was one that he could really talk to, that I was a real person. Feelings of shock, fear, joy, gratitude, and other mixed feelings stirred within this being that I am. I wrote to him back saying more or less the same thing.
What I'm saying is, if there is one person in this world that I would regret putting out of my mind forever, then it would be him. Whether it be that this world around me is a configuration of my imagination, or it is real, although either way I would leave to become one with you, I would miss leaving him the most.
Such a pathetic human I am. The author shows no signs of his story coming to an end any time soon, and time is running out! Please, tell me, where is my heart?! Where is me dream?! Where is my reality?!
It's unfair. All I wanted and needed to be happy was to be with you.... How can I ever look forward to the future without you?!
Memories amounting to nothing. Stayed by false hopes this being is me. I believe(d).
Please, forgive me...Sennyo...
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