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The Way I'll Treat You
Written: 10-30-12 5:28AM
State of Mind: Thoughtful.
No matter how many times I have forsaken you
From this day forward my heart will be true
All these long years that you stayed by my side
Oh; you saw me through all those times; good and bad
There is no better way to repay you with such pride
Than to treat you as royalty for all the times you were sad
It is my turn to take your hand so gently in mine
For you'll be my prince and I'll be your knight
This is the way I shall make up for lost time
Together; finding happiness of the greatest of heights
No longer will you worry of love's cruel rebounds
No longer will you fly in this world, insecure and alone
Infinite times the this world will undoubtedly spin rounds
But always, I'll always be here; guiding you through unknown
Through harsh dessert valleys
Through rivers that so froze
Through dangerous city allies
Through petals of sweet rose
Inner Turmoil
Written: 01-04-12 2:28AM
State of Mind: Sentimental. Torn. Worried.
A bright shining moon,
Hovers high in the sky,
Not a cloud to take up any room,
Where the stars do seem to cry.
Sitting beneath a hallow tree,
That serves the comfort of cover,
Rests a girl of twenty-three,
Pondering how she will meet her to-be-lover.
A log rests not too far away,
Where two mustangs are carefully tied:
One of a white - trustworthy as can be,
One of a black - personality full of fire.
When the moon sets behind the hills,
And the sun gives light to a new day,
One mustang must be left to the nature's chills,
And the other be cared for with water and hay.
Which one shall the girl choose,
Of these two wonderful creatures?
So strong when let loose,
So reliable and beautiful of features.
Dawn grows close, and the girl does know,
She's to lose one beloved around the bend,
Leaving her to see only one of them grow,
As he accompanies her until journey's end.
Puppy Love
Written: 01-08-12 12:35AM
State of Mind: Hopeful. Cheerful. Yearning.
Beautiful brown eyes,
Sparkling with understanding,
Shining with admiration,
So gorgeous I feel like dancing.
A smile shines inside those windows,
Peering straight into my soul,
I speak to them as my feelings so rose,
Into brightness inside me, oh so whole.
The expanding cheer is overwhelming,
So beautifully clean and clear,
It's hard to believe such happiness,
Could be in this person here.
My body smiles, my heart beats fast,
Yet everything seems so right..
When I feel my soul forget the past.
And anxiety in my body take total flight.
How could such a thing exist,
Pure with joy and innocent love,
Why I care to wonder, I forget,
All that matters is inside us ...
And shining from above.
My One
Written: 08-06-09
State of Mind: Questioning.
I may be dark.
I may be strange.
I may seem boring;
A bit deranged.
I can't speak sentences.
I can't dance nor run.
I hide from all those eyes;
Slink home to my one.
He knows I'm not dark.
He knows I'm not strange.
He sees there's no boring;
That I'm nowhere near deranged.
He can speak those sentences.
He can agili dance and run.
He knows how to face these eyes;
But am I to be his one?
I Will Not Hear It
Written: 06-01-09 6:00PM
State of Mind: Aching. Frightened.
Goodbye I refuse to say,
Goodbye I refuse to feel,
Goodbye I refuse to acknowledge,
From goodbye I refuse to heal.
Journey of a Heart
Written: 02-28-09 12AM
State of Mind: Psychotic, Yearning. Frightened.
Confusion racks the mind,
Sobs rock the body,
The thoughts so far behind,
Strength one sadistic parody.
An icey cold within,
The heart so slowly breaking,
What feeling here begins?
The host so terribly aching.
Claimed will be which matters,
So, it is announced one race,
For the fire: Cold it can shatter..
Ice mourns, in last place.
Thaw, the heart, it never does,
But only frosts yet further,
Trying; attemping all there was,
Only to ultimately see: "It's over."
Hopeless
Written:02-26-09
State of Mind: Aching, Open.
In the darkest night,
She does so sadly cry,
Beneath the neighbor's light,
Until her eyes have dried.
There's not a pain as said:
Loosing the star of hope,
The northern light that lead,
All she had to help her cope.
Beneath her blackened gown,
Thin and velvet soft,
Lies a body frail and torn,
With all she had once known.
The world a spinning hell,
Her vision clouded in fatigue,
Now she rests: No pain and well,
Pausing thoughts that'd so intrigued.
Dedicated to my not-blood-related sister.
Malicious Bliss
Written: 02-23-09 6PM
State of Mind: Distant, Sacrificial.
Dancing in flowers,
So fragrant and sweet,
Her heart it devours,
But her feet miss no beat.
Her mind is elsewhere,
Aware of hurt, she is not,
Her heart begins to tear,
But pain thereafter is forgot.
There's nothing threatening thereof,
Undisturbed her dance proceeds,
A dance of maddening love,
A dance ignorant, though she bleeds.
Dedicated to my blood-sister.
Unworldly Birth
Written: 02-20-09 12AM.
State of mind: Wondrous; Yearning.
Sky twinkles black,
In a world unseen,
Behind lying deep blue,
The edges so slyly careen.
The ground very pale,
The path icy cold,
Rainbows do swell,
Within gravel which does hold.
Scenery is bright,
Reached it is not,
For light is forbid,
Until the journey's end is spot.
Thoughts wonder,
Knowledge is bare,
A soul is not had,
Narrow path sought with no care.
Greater peace there,
Behind a blanket so dark,
To do or to not,
Why else to embark.
Entered of no doubt,
A world so corrupt,
But what found within,
The filling of senses so abrupt.
The journey does end,
But goals are unsought,
To find the greater love,
A travel times longer is aught.
So Near, But So Far.
Written: 2003-2004.
State of mind: Peaceful; Mourning.
The rolling grass that never ends,
Wildflowers dancing so near,
The train, it's safety it lends,
Only the silent rumble I hear.
Slowly, the grass, it disappears,
And darkness falls upon the outer land,
With the rise of the moon comes the fear,
The train the only helping hand.
Slowly, the light, it comes back to life,
The darkness fading, but not for long,
Senses become as that of a knife,
As the train chugs along.
The waves of grass finally deplete,
To the the lush green valley meadows,
Still as stone in the summer heat,
That only the meadow itself could know.
The train crawls up the hill,
A journey that is never over,
So slowly it climbs, as if brittle,
Then at the top, it will hover.
The journey wears on,
But I know a new life is near,
In the window I watch a newborn fawn,
And finally I feel my burning tears.
The rolling grass that never ends,
Wildflowers dancing so near,
The train, it's safety it lends,
Only the silent rumble I hear.
Of Peace Untold
Written: 2005
.The stars twinkle lightly..
.The moon shining bright.
.....A thin river trickles......
.......Deep in the night......
.......No life is present.......
....Animals do not roam....
....but still is the forest.....
......Waiting like home......
What is This Place?
Written: 2004.
State of mind: Outcast.
What is this place?
So dark and cruel,
Always slowing my pace,
Taking control.
Oh, the friendships,
They pass so near,
But this place it slowly rips
Me from those I know and hear.
They were my friends,
But this place gave them a gift,
The gift with which their heart it mends,
And past my league they always lift.
But this place a nightmare,
It holds me back,
And I continue my pace; so slow, unfair.
Whatever they have, it is that I lack.
I help those who walk upon
The place's so curse-ed ground,
For they must never slow,
Or this place they will forever pace around.
What is this place?
So dark and cruel,
Always slowing my pace,
Taking control.
Lone Wolf
Written: 2004-2005
State of mind: Secluded, Diverse.
I stand on my own,
Away from my kind,
Their spirits forever unknown,
But I, speaking my mind.
Only few earn my true friendship,
But even then I'm alone,
On my forbidden trip,
Knowing friendships are only a loan.
Who is the one and only,
To end my secret pain,
To end this life, so lonely,
End this forbidden, hidden rain.
I know the time is far,
Until then I'm a lone wolf bound,
On this train guarded with bars,
That only the "one" can get around.
Abandoned
Written: 2005-2006
State of mind: Divergent; Heartbroken.
Here I stand,
Watching in pain,
Reaching out a hand,
Tears as that of rain.
The one I thought would last,
Drives away, not looking back,
Again to the side I am cast,
Not again will those bars be hacked.
The last is gone, not a trace left,
My heart is with the first,
The best I saw so deft,
Yet left is my heart to burst.
My lesson learned, I turn away,
To the life half-empty,
The way it shall eternally stay,
In a landscape of debris.
He'd taught me love,
That's all I asked,
He left me a dove,
But now I am forever masked.
Him, I shall not blame,
For he'd done nothing wrong,
Although, I'll always live in shame,
Of the relationship lasted not long.
I'll never forget the way he was,
His kind words forever inside,
And I shall never say,
It wasn't worth the lovely ride.
Here I stand,
Watching in pain,
Reaching out a hand,
Tears as that of rain.
U again?
Written: 2006
State of mind: Fed up; Knowledgeable.
The pain you caused,
You can't say you don't remember?
From my life I paused,
Erasing the one I saw was fit.
Now you come to me,
Thinking I've well forgotten,
I won't accept, don't you see?
You were, and always will be rotten.
At times I'd thought you right,
But I was wrong beyond compare,
All you did was block the light,
And now I'm blanketed, deep inside my hidden lair.
Never again will I trust your kind,
forgiveness will not do,
'cause now I'm out of my mind,
and soon enough, you will be too.
Hacked?
Written: 2006
State of mind: Peaceful; Trusting.
Those bars,
I thought so strong,
took no wars,
but a love song.
He came into my life,
an accident at sight,
neither gun nor knife,
he carried the light.
A light that shone right through me,
opened my eyes to life's true meaning,
So, I handed over the key,
To the friend I know won't be leaving.
 GraywoIf · Wed Aug 19, 2009 @ 01:31am · 2 Comments |
