Sennyo,
The slightest of his words made it all seem better, okay. Did you know? I did what I had always promised I wouldn't. I started another story. This time, it's a story of unrequited love between a man named Segawa Hiroki and the oblivious Amaha Masane. Witchblade. A fanfiction story of Witchblade. I've recieved three replied for two chapters! Two of which are by the same author, but all gave me such great hope. It made me feel...appreciated... acknowledged... and just...almost happy. It had begun on last Tuesday, around, about June 31, 2009, and the first chapter was at last posted on Wednesday the following day, July first of 2009. This was because, I think of the battlefield within This Person's heart. Seeing Ice Warrior and Sasume at the youth-group thing, and being unacknowledged by Den Ruts. That was my spur to write the first chapter. By saturday, the fourth of July, I thought that I would leave this place. But, I didn't. This person has no reason not to live, but no reason to live. This standstill is unbearable. I struggled Saturday evening/Sunday morning to write the second chapter, which I published that day, as well as the explanation of your story. I finished it. But, I didn't have the courage to finish it all off. I need to feel in an unrequited love in order to write a story, and this day today has given me a slight spur, but not enough of one. Victory wasn't there, Lily ran off to her boyfriend, Glass came and I found that he and Panda are in a relationship secret from Victory. Ice Warrior wasn't there either and so Sasume did not come. Incredibly boring. We, the three of us, got Reedy from all those years ago along with us, and I found out that the creator of that facebook group for/making fun of him was actually that a** PJ Bennett! The a*****e, he got busted by a cop and was in tears by the time he was through.
Byt the end of the day, Reedy had left us by about an hour, we were doing nothing in the southern gym just being silent more or less, and talking of Victory's faults and Glass and Panda's relationship. Glass is such a romantic, regardless of how much he wants to hide it. He said that another reason why he asked out Panda other than something I fail to remember (alas), was because since she was entering the high-school, he was afraid of guys trying to pick her up everywhere. Panda originally thought that it was just a relationship for the summer, but she was wrong, he said. Nine o'clock PM came and we left. I was ahead of Panda and Glass, and I had caught a firefly. As Panda was leaving (with Glass ahead of her), a said that I had a surprise for her, she looks over skeptically and screams. It flew away. Glass asked what happened and she told him I had a firefly in my hand. A few seconds passed, and this girl, a freshmeat (or ex-freshmeat in a month) came out and told me as she passed that we had won for the most tickets. Den Ruts and his sister were slightly ahead of the girl and he turned around to say. "You're lame (You guys are lame?"
"Yeah, 'cause you lost!" I replied to him.
"We didn't even come close." Den said, or something around. Father-person came around, and I was nearing him as I was leaving the grounds. I asked him, "Didn't you do the golf thing last year?" He asked me to repeat. Our eyes locked and lingered, although the lingering was unfocused. I repeated but replaced 'golf' with putput. He said he couldn't remember. His sister reminded him. He said that he had done the fishbowls last year. I felt terrible, for having forgotten.
I still don't feel it though. In love. I don't feel enough in love to continue writing, and now, I regret ever starting the story, especially with an experienced reviewer awaiting the next chapter(s). He tells me more than that's needed. All I ask for are some grammatical errors that I've made, and nice comments (or not so nice), but not extensive sentences. And then, he asks me to read his (Witchblade) story, because he enjoyed mine so much. How rude it is for him to ask that. Is he so hungry for reviews and hits that he must ask? In order to write a story of unrequited love, you must know what unrequited love feels like, and/or atleast to be in one! Oh, how I wish you could be by my side again, ——, to be within my heart once more.
Forgive me, Sennyo.
Good bye.
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Poison Fairy Sennyo Community Member 
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