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'Ello..Etou, its 2:15 here in AK. Eh, I have school later, and I should go to sleep, but I cant. I have waaaaaaay too much on my mind. I've got so many projects due, I'm kinda falling behind in algebra, and on top of that, I'm confused about my love life. sweatdrop I mean, as much as I love guys, I can't keep pretending to be happy, when they reject me here and there. x.X; 'Specially, if they're really special...*sigh* Ah, well...I guess that's why I draw,sing and write. To let out my emotions. But, if I had no gift for any of those, then I probably would have killed myself long time ago...But, a friend of mine, once told me.. 'I envy you, because you have such a strong will' ..I have no clue what she was talking about at that time, 'cause if she really knew me, then she would know, I'm one of the most stupid people ever, and I'm so weak.. Eh, yea...I just guess I'm tired of all this, and not being able to express what's on the inside..Im tired of putting on a fake smile, just to please people...It gets tiring after awhile..And when you try to break out of that shell, you feel numb, 'cause all you have felt is pain...
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