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Mehhh Dx I was deleting messages in my inbox, and I cameacross a whole bunch of ones me and joekr sent Dx He's so sweet, I feel so awful leaving things like this Dx Its just my luck, tearing someone to peices and then not being able to do anything about it. I started crying becuz I feel so ******** bad. And i don't know how to find him or anything. I can't just leave things like this! I can't!!! Dx AHH!H Its driving me insane and and I feel soooo ******** bad, just make me go to hell, people! I feel awful! And don't tell me I shouldn't becuz I know I should becuz its allll my fault. I just hope he's moved on with his life...best of luck to joker. And to tell everyone the truth...when I told him I love you, I really meant it. The idea was unsettling at first...but I ended up liking it. And I did/do love him. I haven't spoken to him. And I can't beleive I gave him the wrong idea. I can't beleive myslef. I'm so stupid! I'm always complaining about heartbreak, and then I go and break someones heart. I'm so cruel! I have no heart!! No soul Dx Its all corroaded and warped and twisted and sprinkled with evil and wrapped in darkness...