June 24, 2009 Wednesday 9:27PM
Dear Sennyo,
They truly are my family, aren't they? Ice Warrior was finally with us today, as well as Sasume (who was rather looking forward to see Victory, who wasn't here with us, to talk to her about their current relationship's stance). M (now Lily) and Panda (the bad-a** a**-kicking) were there. First, it was just the four of us (Warrior, Lily, Panda, and me) inside the rec.. We signed in and talked a little. Then we went outside to the swingset. Warrior's terribly funny. IW spotted Sasume's car coming around. I said that he'd find us and that he had ESP since we didn't feel like getting up to go find him. Den Ruts doesn't look at me at all anymore. Sasume eventually found us, and Warrior was just so funny, and yet so sad. He would often switch between being funny to hating how he was/is treated at home and at school, about how he hasn't exactly fulfilled his parents' dream of him being a perfect son. We went inside, wondering what we should do. Oh, before that, Wyatt was going to go buy some pretzels at the vending machine so he was walking there by himself. He was at the point of the large bush at the corner. I told Warrior to go hunt him down. He hesitated a while but then said something about a mission! and ran after Sasume like a madman. Once Ryan got to the last few bushes along the wall Sasume turned around and ran for his life! The three of us laughed. We eventually went back inside and back to the main room. I was contemplating it, but suddenly Lily offered to play DDR. She's been awfully nice to me lately. It's suspicious. I expect betrayal and deceit at every corner, I do. I complied and we set it up. We were dancing to something and then came in Sasume and Ice Warrior from wherever they were! It was our first song and we both failed terribly. We were on Standard. Then, we went onto Light and played Healing Vision and did very well on it. Warrior was doing these silly antics (standing to Lily who was to my right). He and Panda then played. Both of them doing terribly with Warrior doing slightly better as he did crazy moves with his upper body, also singing in a way to the song and saying 'front, back, side, side,' in compliance with the song and 'other side' occasionally. He bawled on the ground and simulated humping it in a way (the matt) when the song was over, accidentally clicking another song with his hand. He played solo this time, more silly antics. And fell on the ground, again, and clicked the song, again. After this we rested, Panda sitting in the middle section, Lily to her right in the middle section, Warrior to Panda's left still in the middle section, and I to the side on the third segment, with Sasume in the back in the comforter chair in the corner. Lily and I then played and Sasume left as we were nearing to be done. Panda asked why Warrior was hitting her with pillows prior when Lily and I were dancing. I asked why Sasume had left, Lily commented that he was (or seemed to be) depressed. Panda confirmed as did I, and Panda said it's because of Victory who is in a relationship with a black boy. Warrior kept saying how he was going to kick the boy's a**, something about his friend was in love with another friend and there was some black kid in the middle and he wasn't going to have that. He's a really good guy. We went outside to the playground. Warrior far ahead, and I a short distance from Panda and Lily who were together. Before this, as we were exiting the main room through the doors to the patio (Warrior still had Lily's green bow in his hair as he yelled out the door 'I love you!!" to Sasume who had left. I told him how some people already thought him gay and that probably wasn't helping. He replied that once people saw that he was cool and all ripped, they'd (males) become gay to be cool like him, but then when it figured that Warrior was straight, they'd be screwed. He asked Panda to say 'please' when she told him to move over as he held the door open and blocked. Complied. Lily picked up some yellow day-lilies, a red-orange one, and a pink-orange one, and commented how pretty they were. I asked what they were. She didn't know. I said aloud that I thought they were daffodils. We got to he playground with Sasume on the swing far to the side wear the fields are. We talked a bit and he asked 'You guys didn't stop playing DDR because I left, did you?" I felt terrible that he felt guilty about it. I said that it wasn't his fault and we were getting bored and tired anyway. Warrior was funny again and we were talking about Victory and her boyfriend and other things, like our hatred of that pansie Arekusu Mouserii and other attractive, charming/charismatic a**-holes. It was a bit silent and our supervisor came by passing out red, white, and blue popsicles (the rocket kind). I sat near Lily on the ground and took the orange-pink flower. More talk of Victory and the boy. I started to disect the flower, first taking out the stamens and then the female piece, and then the stem and piece that connected it to the flower. Then, finally the petals. Lily said something and then took a bite out of a petal and exclaimed that it tasted just like lettuce! Warrior tried a bit of a petal too and he agreed. I tried as well, and it was true! Panda and Sasume didn't try though. Sasume brought up old memories, and I went along, but when he brought up the memory of him howling, I couldn't quite remember it but pretended to. I felt terrible about it. We were talking about our scary hide-and-go-seek games. A short while later Lily asked if I wanted to play hide-and-go-seek, okay, but it was just the two of us. She sought and I hid behind the bush before the activity room's window. Unfound until minutes later when I was too late and slow to get back under the bush's canopy when she was coming by the second (or third?) time. Panda was hanging out with that phony back-stabber and the other nice preps for some reason. Lily and I went over to the adult playground place to hang. One of us brought up Sasume and Victory. I said how he had been in love with her even before he had come to the youth-group a year and one half ago, and even before that. I then said how he's not even one of those guys only into sex and stuff. She commented something said before about that sort of boy being hard to find. I said the same of Warrior, about that he's a good guy even if he's a bit weird. Sasume and Warrior came around and we spoke of Victory. A while later Panda came back, saying that she was sucked into the preps say '(Hey?) Come here!" Sasume asked if they said 'Come join us...", putting his arms out in the fashion-likening of a zombie. She said no but chuckled. She asked what we were talking about before she got there, and we replied simply, "Vicky." She said how stupid Victory can be, like getting herself into a relationship. I asked to confirm that she didn't feel really emotionally connected to him, as in not loved him. She said she didn't really know. She said that Victory says that all the time but who know's, she's a girl (Victory). Supervisor started yelling to pack up and stuff. Lily said we'd better all go. We agreed. The three of us girls walked together with the guys trailing behind. Panda left immediately with her father, Lily going inside for something. Warrior sat few feet from me on the brick border/wall and Sasume to his right. I asked if Wyatt would rather his and Vicky's relationship to stay as it was now for fear of her rejection (for he was saying as he was walking with Ryan how she would just talk and talk to him and say to him how it would never work out between the two of them and etc.. He said that he knew he would talk to her the second she got back. Victory is at boot camp for ROTC officer training. I said in argument but that she was in a relationship and so might be obligated to him (her boyfriend), I immediately apoligized, I was just putting him down. Warrior said something about backing him up or being there for him. I left, my father had come by from within the building. Good-byes.
Is it really okay? I'm not so sure anymore.
It's unfair. All I wanted and needed to be happy was to be with you.
How can I ever look forward to the future without you?
That's not true. You would get tired of me eventually, and you know it. You would go off to other worlds to replace me in your heart.
I...I can't deny that...
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[End Log] 10:52PM
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