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You may not believe this, but you just killed her. I don't know if you understand what you've just done, but I'm on the phone with her right now and she is dying for you... There was so much good news she had to tell you. Everything wasn't going to fall into hands of the police, that was her fathers stupidty. After the argument he apoligzed for strangling her to near death and threatening to call the police. You think she'll understand, but she wont. You need to talk to her, forget the threat, you NEED to talk to her or else. I don't know what she may do, but she's really contemplating doing things to hurt herself.

She NEEDS you right now. She really does.

Ryan

But I can't be there for her right now. The danger is just too great. And I know what she is feeling. I know that. My insideds are being torn up right now, but I know this is what I must do. She needs some one nearby, some one who is closer to her own age.

The memories that we shared are some that I will cherish for my whole life, but they are memories now. I cannot be what she wants me to be, no matter how much I want it too. I trust that you, her friends, will take care fo her. One day, another bard will capture her heart like I did and heal the wounds I caused. For that man, I leave one of the greatest women I have ever loved.

Rainer, you fool. She's dying and so are you AND YOU of all people wont help her. She wont even talk to anyone else. She's locked in a closet right now and all I can hear is her repeatedly trying to contact you some how. Why wont you just tell her things are okay... Rainer... She wont love anyone, she's crying her heart out, screaming and choking up things I don't want to know. She didn't eat all weekend, she wont stop crying, she's been tearing apart her hands and feet.

Try seeing her come into school with bandaged hands and feet. It would kill you inside to know she's dying. She wont do anything, she just sits in class, staring into space, whispering that she loves you. You need to talk to her. You need to tell her all this with your own voice. She needs a friend like you to talk to her. There's no one nearby, No one.

Please, if you wont do it for her, do it for the people who care about her the most. We all are just waiting for you to try and help in any way... but you wont.

If she has to be sent away or something, I'll make sure to give you the number of the asylum.

You need to say you still love her. She needs to be kept alive right now and being like this is just getting worse. I can't sit and wait for replies before I make sure she's safe and call the police. She wont let go of you, she wants to send you this letter. Supposedly it written with all the details of Saturday night, all the emotions, all the pain, and all the things that's a load of crap. It also, supposedly says that she's still allowed to speak with you, and I spoke with her mother, it's true. She can, but not as ofter as before. Just give her the chance to explain, give her the chance to love again. She wont die. She's still screaming and crying and coughing...

She wont stop and it's killing us all. We're all on the line with her, just waiting for you to respond to us, AT LEAST US. We're pleeding with you. Begging. Don't let her die like this. Jessica is at the front door to Katrice's house, banging on it but Katrice wont answer... she's in that closet waiting for us to say that you'll speak to her again.

She's out of the closet but attempting to look up ways to sue her father for false accusations and attacking a child. Please, keep hope in your relationship with her. She's going to try and be with you. She's trying really hard, please let her in some time soon.

I know. By the Gods I know. But I can't. Right now I'm dead inside, and I will be for a long time. But she will learn to love again, I know she will. I wish I could help her, I wish I could do something more than just sit her in my own self guilt.

If I do the possible hell that could be brough down on both me and my family(Ie, parents and such) would be devistating. For them, I can't do anything. Please, take care of her.

You don't know. She needs to know that one day, when she is older you two can be together, it got her through the weekend, let it help her get through life.

Let her know I will always be there if she needs me, just not as her boyfriend. And if her future love ever treats her poorly, I'll kill him for no honoring her.

I will tell her and it will make her feel better. But I need you to know one thing. She is trying so hard to change her mothers mind. She's trying really hard to fix things up, and even so, she's still planning to see you for your 21st birthday. She's already looking at things like her college schedule, planes (and what their like, seeing as she never rode in one before), hotels, colleges she can go to up north, all of it. She's trying hard to make things so that way when she is 18, she can TRY to love you again. She doesn't want to forget you either. She wont let you forget, so occasionally I will have to contact you...I can't let her just fall to pieces with worry for you. She needs to know your okay. She's also going to keep contact with Andrea and Robin, not only to know if you're doing okay, but because she is friends with them also. Oh...and she's screaming in my ear that she's going to never have sex unless it's with you, even if she has to force you into it... eh.... Yeah... :| I don't know why she says that...wait, did you two...do anything? Wait, I don't WANT to know. So don't tell me. And for the sake of her please remember her, she wants to remember you, but she's afraid you'll forget in the time she needs to heal everything that's been broken. She hopes that you'll be with her again, even as only friends. She needs someone like you in her life, and it's hard for her to let go. She usually keeps friends, even if they were a boyfriend, and not being able to even talk to you kills her inside. I don't care what you have to do, but you need to find a way to remind her that you still care, this will help until about Valentines Day, just tell me or some one you know that talks to her that you are still there and you still remember. I'm not asking you to say something to her every day or every week, maybe every 2 months or so. She wants to believe that you'll still be there, and you know her, it takes a bit to enstill a solid thought in her head for a long time.

I will never forget her, what we had means to much to me.