okay here a recap of wats happebed the past few monthes back in january my mother kicked me out. thou she'll deny it and try to convince u that i left ((so not even true rolleyes )) so ive been living with dave ever since and to be honest i think it was a really bad idea for me to have moved in all we do is fight now. well 70% of the time 20% we're ******** and 5% where ignoring echother and the last 5% consist of us being somewat happy... god how i miss the old day when iid come over his house 3 ties aweek and it still didn feel like enough..... well lets see we found out that dave had a medical problem the cerabellum in his brain was and inch and a half out of his skull, and was putting prsure on his brain stem (witch of couse we all no can paralize u) so he had sergey and no hes okay... but then around prom i guess i as acting bitchy and a week befor prom wich was may28th he started taking to some girls on ....GAIA and when i say "talking" i mean sexuall stuff... he continued to do this up untill the day befor prom and i didnt know... i didnt find out untill jun1st the day befor our aniversary... 1 year and 4 monthes. now i know it could have been worse he could have acually sleept with them, but they where just an online thing... still it hurt alot... and even thou im trying to forgive him and trying to get over it im still really hurt. he dosnt know it still bothers me because i dont want to make him feel worse then wat he probably already dose... i love him... no mater wat he dose ill always love him... i just feel alittle broken and even thoug hes said sorry and wat not... i still feel this way... and idk how to make it go away.. well thats all for now cause idk wat else to write....
 xXxbellaxXx_xXxcullenxXx · Mon Jun 15, 2009 @ 04:49pm · 0 Comments |
